18 f feeling depressed

Hii so i had this question for a very long time and now finally I have guts to talk it out so would guys date someone who is twice there size like overweight cause as someone who is overweight yet "conventionally " attractive till date I have bearly gotten any confessions but I know quit allot of people woh are dating are same weight as me and they are in a loving relationships so just confused af this also is like huge hit on my already nonexistent confidence