New diagnosis with 30

In a span of four weeks, I got the diagnosis cptsd (from my childhood) & ADHD & it spun my world out of its axis. I felt like I was always a bit too emotional, bit too burdened & I always had a problem with dating (the last person I kissed was my ex girlfriend 5 years ago). But know that I have this new explanation I feel kind of disabled. Like all mimics I have are just deep-rooted problems I should have handled a decade ago... I don't even have therapy right now, I'm living in a new-ish city where I don't have any friends, even though I'm a social person usually I think. Also I feel like my friends are so DONE listening to me spiral so I can't even talk to them about it. But if I could pay them who I am as a person, and how other people perceive me, I would. Bc right now I'm wondering whether new people I meet could even find me attractive or if it's so obvious to everyone that I'm kind of defect. I dunnoooo