Should I cut contact with my ex??

my boyfriend m15 broke up with me f16 four days ago after we had been dating for a year and two months.

we ended in good terms although clear I did NOT want to break up, i understood as he said it was due to mental health reasons however I also have severe mental health issues and have never once questioned my love for him.

he was diagnosed with depression at 10 and has continuously struggled since then and attended therapy however he does not enjoy talking about his problems. This spans to me aswell he refuses to talk to me about anything he has told me that he has gone to therapy and has struggled with self image and bad thoughts but will not tell me why. This extends to date and he has never once told me when he is actively struggling which I understood but felt sad as I tell him.

i am also diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety and struggle lots and recently started talking to him about how I felt as it got particularly bad and he has always been there for me. I have never forced him to talk to me about how he feels or why he feels it and I never wanted him to feel forced to.

four days ago he broke up with me due to his mental health we have stayed in very high contact since as we have been best friends for four years and dated twice within that time frame. I have told him I want him to talk to me about it as I want him to get better but he refuses.

we have discussed our relationship a lot since breaking up and we have both mutually agreed we believe we our soulmates (young love and all that but when you know you know ) he has also said he will 100% date me again when he gets better. which gives me comfort but also makes me feel confused because why not now ?? Also wtf ??

he is without a doubt the kindest person I have ever met and he would never do anything to hurt me, or at least wouldn’t of until about a month ago.

due to my SEVERE anxiety which he knows about, I get very anxious when he goes to party’s. No it is not because I am jealous I know he wouldn’t have cheated on me and he hasn’t but I get so scared of something bad happening what that is I don’t know but it is caused due to my anxiety as I assume the worst outcome in every situation. he knows this.

he got invited to a party of one of his friends gf party ( she tried to set him up with two of her friends knowing he was dating me at the time and they are both at said party) and I told him I was uncomfortable and really didn’t want him to especially because there was 30 girls and 8 boys not including him and that amplified my distaste towards the party. I said I’d break up with him if he went. He went.

i did in fact not break up with him as I was never going to (I know but I live this man and I was just saying anything I thought would make him not go) but I had said for two and a bit weeks I didn’t want him to and he said he wouldn’t until three days before and he said he didnt want to let his friends down as they were having a sleepover at his afterwards. if he knew he wasn’t going to go why’d he organise this ?? He has since said it was his biggest regret. I cried to him numerous times about how hurt I felt.

He is currently at a party right now with 35 girls to 10 boys including him. He promised me he wouldn’t go to aswell. He said his friends wouldnt go if he didn’t so he had to. just as I’m typing this he has just said he is staying there until it ends at 11 after saying they were going to leave at 9 (it is currently 9:12pm)

all my friends have told me to stop contact no matter how badly it hurts and that I deserve better but i love him with my whole heart and we are literally the same person and we get each other like no one else he is also the most attra person I have rêver met I see no flaws in him.

i Genuinly feel my insides imploding im on themselves because of how he’s hurting me what do I ??

please help me