UPDATE: I disclosed my GHSV1 tonight.

Update to this... https://www.reddit.com/r/Herpes/s/0cnkKXcv9s

Thank you all for the kind comments and messages. They have truly helped lift this dark cloud that’s been hanging over me. Over the past couple of days, I’ve opened up to more people in my life and realized just how common this shit is, lol.

As for me and the guy, we’ve continued talking every day like normal. The day after I disclosed was really rough for me. I could barely get out of bed. I had dinner planned with my friends that night, and it was so hard to put on makeup because I couldn’t stop crying. Through all of this, though, he continued talking to me about his day like we usually do. Later that night, he even said he regretted not asking me to stay with him because I had been so upset.

Before I disclosed, we had made plans to go to a preseason football game tomorrow. I’ve been anxious leading up to it, so today I finally asked if he still wanted to go. They’re my tickets, and I invited him, so I wanted to give him an easy opportunity to back out if he had changed his mind. He said he still wants to go, and I’ll be meeting him at his apartment since he lives near the stadium.

I do want to bring everything up again, possibly after the game, because I’m just so confused about our status....no pun intended. I didn’t want to text him about it or pressure him in any way, but I have so many different scenarios running through my mind. Is he trying to be just friends? Does he feel bad for me and keep texting all day, every day because he doesn’t want to feel bad before he inevitably ends things?

In my mind, I wouldn’t go through the trouble of consistently talking to someone if I didn’t see any kind of future with them, but that’s just me. I also know people can give mixed signals, so I’m anxious all over again.

I really want to enjoy the game because I love my team and football and I genuinely enjoy being around him. But the elephant in the room is going to feel so loud, and I’m tired of spiraling and trying to guess what he’s thinking.

Does anyone have advice on how I can bring up the situation again without making him feel pressured? He truly is so kind and funny, and I haven’t felt this way about someone in a long time. I’m just so confused. Thanks again. <3