Like Mourning the loss of a Dear Friend

I'll start by saying this, I've been depressed, and anxious for as long as I can remember. Not a day goes by that is easy for me. I'm afraid I'll never know why.

For the past year I started Adderall, 10mg, twice a day. Then I found 7oh.

The combination was Amazing for me, everything became fluid. And I enjoyed every day. I was no longer depressed, and in fear of some imaginative force.

I wanted to talk to people. And I could do it with ease, for the first time in my life.

I've taken antidepressants, some work to a degree. Others, not at all. But this combo was the Greatest antidepressant I've ever known.

My 7oh use did get somewhat out of hand. I reached 500 MG a day for about 4 months. I know that's excessive.

And the only real issue in my life was how much money I was spending. Yes, that's a big problem.

BUT DAMN DO I MISS FEELING THAT WAY.

I'm 7 weeks free from 7oh today, thanks to SR-17.

Still taking Adderall, although, I feel I need to slow it down to allow my receptors to heal. But overall, I don't feel as bad as I thought I would.

I'm so torn with this stuff. I know I need to quit. But boy do I miss it.