I’m so sorry

I’m sorry for everything. I’m so unbelievably sorry. God I miss you. God I miss us. I miss everything about you. Your laugh, your smile, your eyes, your smell, your smile, your presence. I fucked everything up. I know that. I know I messed it up. I know I messed us up. I know I was the problem. I made everything 100X worse for us. If I could go back in time and tell the old me what I was going to do and not to do it I would. I would take back every hour, every minute, every second of it. I love you. I love us. Please don’t give up on me. Please don’t give up on us. I still believe in us. Please, god please tell me you do as well