Frustrated at my painful vag and lack of self control: re upload

Forgot to tag as NSFW soo just re uploading…

So I’m(22F) a uni student double majoring in accounting and finance and my courses are hard and my days are 8am to 4pms because of classes.

I’ve been struggling with school and barely scraping passes so when the 2nd semester started I really locked in to attend lectures and stay on top of at the very least, all the content I’m covering for the next 3 months.

So now it’s week 3, and my bf (21M) and I have been doing sleepovers at each others rooms a lot during the weekdays and the ONEEEE rule I wanted myself to be strict about was making sure I slept in my own bed alone during the weekdays.

I struggle to really sleep well if someone’s near me, don’t know why, but it’s always been like that.

Problem is my bf had been visiting home for the past 2 weekends so I felt as though I couldn’t see him unless we spent the night together cuz my weekdays are filled with school. So now it’s like I’m burning the candle at both ends.

So the main part of the story is that this morning, he and I wake up to each other and there’s not a lotttt of time before I need to get ready for my 8am class, but sometimes we have morning sex cuz we’re both pretty high in libido.

Two nights ago, when he returned from home on Tuesday, we had had sex again and it was a lil too rushed for my cooter if ya get my drift… I wasn’t prepped enough and it kinda hurt, but for the sake of missing him I kinda disregarded it. And it’s been 2 days now so I didn’t think I’d still be feeling sore but here we are at like 7am trynna bone and my cooter is stinging quite a bit.

I again didn’t think it’d be too bad so I continue and don’t get me wrong, it did at certain points feel pleasurable but I could tell I was pushing myself and I was the one who initiated so it’s not really my bf’s fault.

ANYWAYS, today fucking sucked cuz I realised my vag hurt BAD the second I tried sitting down for my first class. And it just kept going for the whole fucking day and I’m just sleep deprived and trying to take notes and be present and I’m in pain and I fucking hate being a girl in moments like this.

I hate that the pain is my responsibility to handle and prevent by having slow, careful intimacy when guys can just stick it in and be done with it. This isn’t a hate call to my partner either, he’s a lovely man who treats me well and even worried about me after I said I was in pain before I left for class.

It’s just that when I texted him an update during the day he didn’t really respond with the empathy that I needed, but was trynna say how we should maybe try to not go the whole way for now and YEAH i won’t be having sex for a while i know but damn bruh, I wanted a lil lovin i guess.