OmeTV Regrets — I can’t take this anymore. Please, tell me what you think.

I need to talk about something I’ve been dealing with for about a year, because it’s been weighing on me more and more and I genuinely want to get out of this cycle.
I’m 23, and for about a year I’ve been using OmeTV more and more frequently. At first, I used it to meet girls, talk, flirt, and have sexual interactions. My intention was always to find people who were 18+, and I would normally ask their age before anything happened.
Over time, though, it became compulsive. Even when I was in a relationship, I kept going back to it. I would tell myself it was going to be the last time, but eventually I would relapse again.
There are two specific situations that have been haunting me.
The first happened recently. I met a girl randomly on OmeTV. I didn’t know she was 14, and I only found out after I had already finished. Finding that out afterwards really messed with my head, and I’ve been thinking about it constantly.
The second happened months ago. In that case, I already knew the girl was 16, but I pretended to be 17. I continued anyway and finished. I know that was wrong, and I’m deeply ashamed of it.
I want to make something very clear: I have never gone on OmeTV looking for minors. I was looking for adults and I normally asked their age. Most of the people I’ve had these experiences with were adults; my most recent relapses, for example, were with people who were 19 and 18.
As for consent, I normally always ask for it. However, on rare occasions, when I was caught up in the impulse, I ended up showing myself without having received clear consent. I feel extremely ashamed of those situations and I know they were wrong.
The biggest problem has become a cycle: I go on OmeTV → I relapse → I feel horrible → I start obsessively thinking about what I did and what kind of person I am → I look for reassurance → eventually I go back to OmeTV again.
Today I had another relapse. I went on OmeTV, showed myself to someone, got banned, and afterwards I masturbated while watching porn. Once again, I ended up feeling full of shame.
I’m not writing this because I want people to simply tell me “you’re a good person.” I know some of the things I’ve done were wrong, and I take responsibility for that. I genuinely want to break this behavior for good.
I don’t want to go on OmeTV anymore, and I don’t want to keep putting myself in situations where I act on impulse and then spend hours mentally destroying myself over what happened.
I know that what happened was wrong, but I also know that I don’t want to be this person or repeat these things. I want to change and leave this behind.
If anyone has experienced a similar cycle of compulsive behavior, relapse, shame, and constantly seeking reassurance, I’d really appreciate hearing how you managed to break out of it.
Sorry, I used ChatGPT to summarize what I told it and translate it into English; I feel like absolute shit about the situation, and I’m genuinely afraid for my conscience.