i don't know what I'm going through

Quit my job recently since I was just generating Ai content there. i used to work as a designer and for the past 6-7 months it's been just generating Ai content and it sucked the soul out of me.

I left the co-operate in a bad note. Cut ties with almost all coworkers. They couldn't understand what I was going through. All of them had kids and family. I live alone and philosophically analyse everything for no reason.

No routine no discipline these days. Feels alienated from the world entirely. I do have my own dreams. But i just can't begin to work on it.

Used to take edible weed while working. Sometimes I used to go home and cry when I see homeless people. I didn't understand what all these struggle is all about. Everything happening in the world and rich folks eating kids and me training this AI model at work . I was numb

I don't know what exactly i feel now. I'm in a long distance relationship and away from my parents. Sometimes I feel like I'm just rotting here in my room. My screen time is like 10+ hours these days and my attention is so scattered.

Sometimes I just break into tears. Idk what's right and wrong anymore