[Measurement Check] I got 42H/I. Worried it’s too big

Measurement check? 42H/I

Loose Underbust: 45
Snug Underbust: 43.5
Tight Underbust: 41.75
Standing Bust: 49
Leaning Bust: 56
Lying Bust: 52

This is all in inches. The sizing system is USA/Canada. I’m just unsure, it seems so large. I used to wear 36DD but I don’t really wear a bra at all because of how much it hurts but I absolutely hate my breasts and how they make me feel. I feel like I can’t leave the house. I would be so much happier without them. I can’t think of a single downside of not having them but alas I’m a woman so im forced to have them lol