34 [M4F] #Raleigh #NC #EST - Let's try this again, Nerdy, cross between a metalhead and elder emo guy looking for his best friend and his spark for some new missed experiences.

Hello there ! 34 Married White male here looking for someone to talk to and get to know and see where things go. So far I haven't had much luck because I'm either looking for something not serious enough for someone (meaning that I don't want to completely upend anyone's life) or they seem to be intimidated by the situation which i totally get. Essentially I'm looking for someone that is a best friend that can turn into new experiences and more. Someone I can confide in and vent to, and talk to on a daily basis. You could say that I'm introvertedly extroverted, because once I get to know someone and there's a connection there I absolutely love talking to them. A lot of my issues stems from how I grew up and how it essentially forced me to "grow up" at a young age just to survive. I walled myself up hard when I was younger so nowadays I crave the attention and connection I never let myself have outside of normal friends, I never let myself open up or be vulnerable to someone that I thought was attractive because of that. I always thought I'd either be too much of a burden or scare people off 😅 . Iguess you can say I like trauma bonding in a sense because I can usually have great talks with people that have been through life like I have. A little bit about myself is I love to cook, I'm a huge music person, I love true crime podcasts and I love just learning about people and where they come from. I'm looking for a distraction from day to day life and would really like a new friend :) I'm a transplant to my state so I don't really have friends here and I get lonely very easily 😭. So If you like a bearded husky metalhead who has a dark sense of humor and loves to cook and nerd out to music and games we may be a match!