The last time I cried

It was during my breakup 2 years ago. We met on hinge and were only together for a few months but things moved super fast. She lives 2 hours away The first time we met she drove to my place and we slept together. I didn’t mind this because I went on a few dates with people I met on hinge but the problem was we would talk for months and things never progressed but it seemed like she actually liked me and wanted to build a relationship with me. So she told me she loved me within a month of being together and she had a friend group consisting of people she’s known since grade school and I became a part of said friend group and they seemed to really like me.

I would drive 2 and a half hours to see her on the weekends when I got off work. Whenever we would go places I would always pay for her meals which I don’t mind doing sometimes but I paid for literally everything. Her iPad went out and I let her use mine, she got a new job working remote and I got her a laptop. Whenever we went places we would take my car never hers. She told me she wanted to marry me and bragged about how great I was to her friends and we discussed moving in together. We took my car and drove 7 hours to meet her family and of course I took one of my TVs down and gave it to her parents for their guest room. She introduced me to her mom and everyone she grew up with and showed me where she went to high school.

Not too long after she invited me to go on a trip with her and her friends and their boyfriends and they brought one of their friends as well. We rented out this large Airbnb and everyone chipped in. We also rented out a van so everyone didn’t have to drive. Now I don’t drink or do any drugs whatsoever but her friends drink a lot. She told me it’s possible we may be going out to bars and I said okay but I’m not going to drink. The first day we were there we went out and it went pretty well. That night we went out to eat and they wanted to go out to clubs but me and her ended up going back to the Airbnb and going to sleep. Well I was woken up by a loud banging noise around 3 am and it was her friends hammered drunk playing a prank on us. She went out to talk to them and I went out there for a while but I ended up going back to sleep.

I only slept maybe 3 hours in total and the next day we did a lot and hung out but I was absolutely exhausted by the time night rolled around. Around midnight They including my ex all wanted to go out to bars but I was absolutely fucking exhausted to the point where I could barely keep my eyes open. I tried to tell her this and she did not like it at all and told her friends and that’s when shit hit the fan. I ended up going with them even though I was exhausted and I just hung out at the bar but of course didn’t drink anything. When we got back and woke up the next morning her energy towards me completely changed and she started to act distant.

When we got back to her place she almost completely ignored me and wasn’t herself at all. Of course I paid for our dinner. I kept asking if everything was okay and she said yes. I didn’t think there was an issue because I went out with them and we had fun. So I got up for work the next day and drove home. When I got there she was taking a long time to reply and said “I just feel differently about you whether or not it was intentional” and “all of the other guys go out with their girlfriends and you hesitated” So I was at lunch downstairs when I was at work and she ended things via text demanded I send all of her stuff back to her and blocked me on literally everything. I was freaking out and told my friend who offered to text her and see why she did this and my exs friend texted her instead and said not to text my ex anymore.

I couldn’t stay at work so I emailed my HR liaison who told me I could leave. So I left got inside of my car and I cried my fucking eyes out. I sobbed so hard because it hurt so fucking bad. This person who 24 hours prior wanted to move in with me and marry me wanted absolutely nothing to do with me anymore. The first person I called was my mom who could hardly understand me because I was crying so hard. She drove all the way to my place and took me out to dinner that night. I ended up sending her stuff back because I didn’t see any point in keeping it and thought it would cause me more pain. I asked for my stuff back and she completely ignored me. That was the last time I dated and it took me a while to recover from it.