I turn 30 today and I have no one.

I’ve never felt so depressed and defeated as this year. Nothing brings me joy anymore and I don’t look foward to the future.
My mom went to work even though she could have changed the day since it’s flexible. But then again she claims she doesn’t celebrate anything because of her religion but she’s at every birthday/christmas party she’s invited to.
Of course she already made a big post about my birthday on facebook for her friends to see and give her attention. Because in real life I’m just a failure to her.
My father just said happy birthday and moved on, he probably won’t even be here for me to cut the cake because he will go watch a football match.
My sister went to the beach and will only show up for the cake.
Speaking of cake I had to bake it and buy other things or else I wouldn’t even have that.
The school/work colleagues that I’ve tried so hard to please over the years won’t even say anything because the moment I stopped trying they never reached out again.
My “best friend” wanted to have lunch but I’m at a point with him where I can’t stand him anymore and if I’m gonna be miserable I’d rather be alone.
The only reflection I can make is that having been a people pleaser all my life and trying to make them consider me a friend took me nowhere. They only reach out if they need favors.
I envy those who have people who care about them enough to make their day special.
But honestly I don’t care anymore and I won’t pretend to care either. I have my two cats who are the only happiness I have and my only wish is that one day I can have my own house where I can build my safe space and be left alone in peace.