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I've been playing Nine Circles as my first hard demon for about 3 days now, I have it in 3 runs (43%, 40-58, 58-100)

I see myself as wave carried, but this level has been testing that for a while. I can't even do the easy miniwave gap at 74 and have to use some weird methods (just flying over it and doing a ridiculous click) to pass it.

And of course this wouldn't be a problem if I could pass the ship.

And not being able to pass the ship has really taken a toll on my morale.

And I want to drop the level forever and not worry about it ever again.

But I have it in 3 runs.

And I want a hard demon by 2027.

And I have over 2k attempts right now. Bottom line is: how do I stay motivated to play, even with all these problems? AND PLEASE DO NOT SAY GET GOOD! I'M ALREADY DEMOTIVATED AS IS!