I need to shift NOW

And by shifting I mean I need to have all my manifestations now. I need to shift to a reality with my desires NOW. The 3D is torturing me, and I cant do ts no more, Ive waited months. And its only gotten worse. I tried manifesting by entering the void but idk if I can get there. I dont know what to do anymore Im discouraged and anxious since Im manifesting on a time crunch and its urgent, Ive tried making deadlines before the actual one so I could be sure I had manifestations by then but they dont fucking work!! Ive been telling myself for months that the next day I will wake up in my new reality and I wake up in the same damn shithole. I know the 3D is a mere illusion but its torturing me and I cant do it anymore. I also feel so in my new identity that waking up and seeing the old story and old identity is like seeing someone thats not me and it hurts so much, Like I cant recognise myself, I just want to get out of here. Please help.