Defining Myself

For those who are INTP 5w4s, do any of you have a hard time defining yourself as a person/finding things that satisfy you in life? In the past years I have found it very difficult to understand who I am as a person to find interests in things that interests me long term. I start to have a certain opinions on things that somehow almost always change after a while and I become at odds with myself because my opinions and idea differ from what they once were. I have been in multiple different friend groups and while I have similarities in each one, it is apparent that I always feel out of place after a while. With my interests there are a million things that I want to do, learn and explore but find myself repeating the same patterns and rewatching the same movies and shows. While also constantly doing the same hobbies I have been doing for years and at times I feel as though I am in a weird paradox of my past self vs the self that I want to create but alas I feel stuck in my own bodies at times. Wanting to do more than my norm but falling short in the decisions more often then not. Help pls.