Holiday depression

At first I thought it would be awesome. Almost 3 months without any college stuff to do, maybe try to improve myself.

I tried to find a job but it's very hard to find one in my country... I decided that I just need to rest if I can't find one. The thing is I jus

t started feeling worse now, and there are almost 2 months left. I feel very lonely, cause my best friend is on her vacation and other friends are too busy to even meet with me. I tried to find some friends online but those connections doesn't feel genuine.

I tried to do some hobbies but the only one I actually am into now is gaming, the feeling of escapism and freedom... I can play games all day but even that thing got boring now. I tried reading, cooking, drawing etc. but everything feels so out of reach and doesn't give me that much dopamine.

I just kinda feel like I'm stuck in this place, while others are improving and it's just true. I kinda miss having to go to uni. I know there are many chores and I need to study under stress but at least it can bring me away from my depressive thoughts.