37 [M4F] #online disability make me want to control baddie that wants to be treated like object

Backstory:

Was diagnosed with cystinosis at 10 months old. Only about 2000 people in the world with my disease at the time of diagnosis. Pretty much genetically equivalent to winning the lottery.

Stunted growth (5’2”), kidney failure (transplant in 2003, 23 years with my new kidney going strong), and severe photophobia (severe light sensitivity) were my primary symptoms early on in life. The last several years it’s been infertility, muscle wasting (poor balance and altered gait, poor grip strength), anemia (under control rn), hypothyroidism (controlled with meds), and depression.

A few years ago, when I had to stop playing guitar because of lack of grip strength, I began to realize that I was quickly becoming undesirable to the traditional dating pool. Sterility, inability to provide/protect, height, etc. Combine all of that with the fact that most people with my disease don’t live past the age of 50, and I’m not exactly the most eligible bachelor.

HOWEVER, I know that I’m blessed. I am mostly mobile and can still leave the house. I live near family that loves me and supports me emotionally and financially. I have a relatively mild form of my disease, and there’s a potential gene therapy in clinical trials that has shown promising results in halting the progression of the disease.

I believe that I have high emotional intelligence, empathy, and persistence/fortitude because of what I’ve been through. Ideally, I could find a life partner that I could still emotionally connect with DESPITE all the challenges with which I’ve been presented. That being said, if that’s not a possibility, then I want a horny slut. Someone that is okay with me rubbing my dick on their face and pussy, calling them a slut, choking and spanking them, spitting in their mouth, and using them like a cum dumpster. If you’re a woman and this turns you on, please message me.

I’m clean, have my own place, where I can host, and I’d love to chat with you. I’m also open to friendships as I don’t know many people in this space, and I’ve only lived in NC for about eight months and don’t have many friends here. Willing to exchange SFW/NSFW photos with anyone that messages!