Need help, not judgment. Thinking to change sperm donor after 8-10 euploids..

Queer, maybe SMBC

Made some euploids with sperm donor

Felt uncertain for a bit, thought I found peace with it, went ahead with another round to bank euploids. Not sure when I’ll transfer, ideally would like to find a partner to do this with.

With the latest ER, I think we might be looking at 8-10 euploids total 😭

It hit me hard for the second time (and this whole time since last round with euploids..)

I feel like I might do another round with a different donor, after I’ve processed this, hopefully with therapy

And I feel sick about it

If I wrote the reasons here, I feel like I’ll be severely judged. But clearly it’s affecting me…

I think I really need help… can someone recommend someone/somewhere?