what does healthy conflict and resolution look like in (very) early dating??

I am in a complicated situation. I'm seeing/"dating" someone but it's already long distance and we've met around 2 months ago. He is wonderful, and we are compatible in a lot of ways, but not on our views of distance.

He is very skeptical of LDRs, whereas I am optimistic towards the idea. So obviously, that causes some friction and makes me anxious.

He visited me and had made a comment indirectly implying/confirming why distance is bad. So that made me overthink and made me anxious, upset, annoyed.

I am unfortunately a cryer - if I am stressed or overwhelmed, my body will cry, it's just what happens. so I think he saw the tears and got a bit freaked out. He listened and responded well, but his demeanor (face, body language and sometimes his tone) seemed really nervous/distressed and panicked. Which makes me feel really horrible for stressing him out.

We had a hard convo, there was no yelling, but I was crying and he was being a bit pessimistic, but ultimately we agreed to keep getting to know each other and see where it goes rather than calling it off.

And then later that day, I was upset again for a related but different reason, and I told him, and then that night he said he felt really bad for being pessimistic and said he thinks it will work out. Before he'd arrived, I told him that because he doesn't see a possible future, I can't sleep with him bc it will hurt me, but we can be friendly and get to know each other. We called and he'd said he thinks he changed his mind. He visited, we slept together many times, and then he said earlier (the first convo) that his gut is telling him to not pursue it (even tho we ended up agreeing to continue). So I felt used, and I told him it felt strategically timed, which he apologized for.

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I am super inexperienced in dating, and on top of that, long distance is inherently uncertain, so it's stressful. But I like him a lot. I just don't know how to handle conflict well, and I also dont know if conflict this early on is unhealthy??

A few of my concerns:

1. I dont want to be manipulative, I dont want to guilt trip him by crying. I obviously don't cry with a purpose of guilt tripping, but I can see that someone would feel guilty.

2. I don't want him to feel that he has to walk on eggshells to appease me, or that he can't say what he feels

3. This may be my anxiety talking, but I don't know if he said he wants to pursue it and it will work out out of his own will, or out of guilt.

4. Telling him it felt strategically timed, in hindsight, is horrible of me. I should not have implied such an immoral accusation, he is a good guy, and to say that must have felt horrible to him. To accuse someone is never okay.

5. I dont' know how well the conflict was resolved. Like, I said all I needed to say, and (I hope) he did too, and we concluded that we will try and that he "thinks it will work out", but I can't tell if there's still lingering awkwardness or not? I am an over thinker, so maybe there isn't. But it was a hard conversation and I think it felt way more escalated because I cried, and I can't tell if he said he wants to pursue it out of guilt/panic, or because he truly wants to.

I just don't know man. My parents were not good examples of healthy communication or conflict. And I've never had a boyfriend/never gotten to the conflict stage in dating, so I dont know how it should be, I dont know how to handle it or whether or not it's healthy, etc. I'm just spiraling and I need advice, or reassurance, or help. Lol.