My little cousin sister sex

Hi guys, I am 19 years old, I have a cousin sister who is also 19 years old, I had a crush on her from last 1 year, once I went to her house when at night I, she, our mothers, my younger sister, and her younger brother all slept in one room, I was sleeping near her, it was 2 o'clock in the night, I took my mouth near her boobs, her boobs and ass were very big, I kept my mouth near her boobs, then after some time I caught her heart and kept it on my chest, my heart was pounding very fast Then I placed my hand on her waist and slept hugging her, after some time I started pressing her boobs lightly, she was trying to stop me at first but I did not stop, then I started kissing her, we kissed for a long time, there was spit on both of our faces, we both continued doing it even then, my penis was completely filled with precum, I started pressing her boobs, bit her nipples, slapped her ass and then slept holding her, but I was a little sad that I could not have sex completely I still masturbate thinking about it, I wish I could get her pregnant at 19 with my sperm, have sex with her daily, and fuck her ass. I have fantasies and thoughts of raping her and to be honest, if I get a chance, I will rape her without guilt.