I am 21 years old and I’m losing my will to live

I have been a licensed esthetician for a year and I absolutely hate it. I’m embarrassed of my job and I cry every morning before going into work. I didn’t finish college because my gpa got too low so my job options are slim and I don’t even know if a different job would help. I see no point in working as hard as I do just to come home and pay bills and buy food and take care of shit. I don’t want kids or a husband and there isn’t a way to advance my career especially if I hate it already and want to get out of it, so I see no point in staying alive for long. This is more of just a vent I know I’m being negative I just hate my job and my life.