I dunno what to do about a silly color issue

I have a stupid problem with colors. Don't know why but I need screen colors to be basiclly perfectly accurate or else it brings a lot of anxiety. Its specificlly colors, I don't care about 4K or any of such. If I know a color is off I spend hours calibrating. Most often to no results.

My monitor and TV both have innacurate colors. My monitor has reds too pink. My TV blues too purple and my white point is incorrect. I have spent hours calibrating and losing sleep. Every few weeks I get so annoyed I flip everything to black and white. And can handle it for a few hours before needing color. The longest I've went is a week but whenever I looked at my screens I almost threw up. I still get that feeling now when looking at grays which is interesting.

If I could get black and white glasses I would. I think the issue is seeing the world in color but not on screens. The whiplash wasnt good.

I cannot afford a colorimeter, nor do I have a computer to work it.

I have tried to play games in handled and its better. However my hands are almost always sweaty and sticky. If I eat meat, ketchup, or anything in that very non specific group my body sweats bad. Its fixable but just eating sandwhiches everyday but I'm sick of them. Handhelds are much harder to clean compared to a controller.

I genuinlly think fully quitting gaming is my best option to do.