I think I fucked up.

I sent my ex her clothes and stuff back a few days ago. They were delivered yesterday. I feel weird about it. And by that, part of me wants her to get back into contact with me and I want us to talk about everything face-to-face. I want us to be in contact again. But on the flip side, I'm fucking terrified she'll do something. Did I massively fuck up by sending her this stuff? Both family and friends have said it was a kind thing to do - rather than sell her stuff or bin it, or whatever. I agree with that.

I'm just in this shit state and I hate it. I want to talk to people about her, and I want to talk to people about how this is affecting me. But people get bored, I don't have access to therapy at the moment. I'm worried I'm pushing people away by constantly talking about her. But she traumatized me, and I'm scared - essentially. I'm scared she'll escalate things. I want this to fucking stop.

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