Is it even okay for me to date?

To keep it short and sweet, im very messed up inside. I struggle with identity issues, body dysmorphia, ptsd/truama, ocd, depression, and i dissociate. Not to mention im stubborn as fuck and most of the time dont like touch or the idea of the preasure of dating. Im scared of being wanted, being touched, seen, desired, chased, perceived. I dont open up easily if at all, and when i do its a quick yeah this happened it is what it is.

Why date? Because every now and then I receive the disgustingly human urge to be close with someone. To know them as well as they know me, to share my goals and plans with them, to love and cherish them, to comfort them and have them comfort me. Have someone to be around and feel safe with.

Theres a guy I like to be around and I think he might like me. If things eventually lead to a possible relationship, would it even be okay for me to date?​ im not okay, I dont want someone to fix me, I dont want to burden someone else with my junk, but I dont know if ill ever get better. I can also be very hot and cold due to my anxiety, either practically throwing myself on someone in a desperate act of trying to remedy my fear of losing them or time with them, or extremely cold and almost mean towards them to protect myself from being hurt or seen.

This is very dramatic but ive been thinking about this too much recently.