I GOT MY FIRST KISS AND I CANT GET OVER IT✨

Actually it was yesterday🥰 and I can't get over and i really don't want to it's revolving in my head and im living in that loop for over a day and I'm so freaking happy♥️

So I am dating my crush which I had for nearly 9 years now and finally im in rs with her so I basically never told her and we weren't that good friends but our family are some what close or something like that idk so after 2 years ago or to be precise when I was in 9th she switched school and we lost connection but a few months prior I met her though a public gathering or a katha(holy function) so we exchanged socials and after that we started chatting daily and sharing snap etc (btw her family is strict asf)

so this time after the gap I fell for her again cause this time I was knowing about her unsaid or unseen version which was hidden all this time and I loved her more this time cause of her struggle (I told you shes from a strict family) so it goes like this but then i propose her or more like confess and she said NO it was confusing for me cause of getting so good treatment from her but i think that was basic kindness but after trying to stay friends and try to save the friendship it's was too much for me cause it was almost a decade since I started loving her and I can't just shut my feelings at my will so I told her I will take a step back and we should stop talking cause I'm way too attached and it will not go on its own so she tried to stop me but eventually i stepped back even when I wanted to stay but that 1-2 weeks gap made her know my importance or she just missed me or realised idk for sure but after around 2 weeks she proposed me back and it was one of the best day of my life.

But a lot of problems came in our way cause her father come to know about our relationship but she saved my ig as a nickname so they don't really know my real identity and she lied about me just a random guy she met online and after that we used to talk like one time in 6-7 days and only for 3-4 min with her friend or cousins phone ik it sound tough but somehow she convinced them to get her pc back (her father broke that thing to pieces) and she don't have a personal phone so we don't really had a way to talk and even in touch . The longest I waited was 19 days without even knowing anything.

But eventually she got her pc back things started to fall back to their places and it was going to be normal until it was my turn to go to hostel to pursue studies in a diff city 440 km away so we were just chill on the screen but real awkward in person due to less time together in real life and it's been 7 months and till today we just had 3 hangout you can say but everything changed when i returned from my hostel to my hometown due to some work and when I went to meet her surprisingly i just said "look out from balcony" and when she came she literally jumped and the smile of her face ohh God I can never forget that she was so emotional that her eyes were numb so I went home quickly cause I didn't wnt her to cry later she told me how happy she is and this was 2 days ago

and yesterday after so much planning and excuses she finally got to get out of that house(jail) and first we went near a temple around 7 pm so pretty dark then she opened the presents i bought for her (I missed her birthday when we were not in contact) and she complained a lot about me spending so much money and it wasn't important but she was happy as f I can see on her face later we clicked a few pic and after that we were in a near the temple in a shady place not completely dark and I made my first move and placed my right hand on her left cheek to her neck and kissed on her right cheek and she immediately took control and kissed me on my right cheek twice and we both were smiling for a second then she came near me and grabbed or held my neck and kissed me on lips and I can never forget that moment and it all felt like a slo-mo then she hugged me and i pat her head(she's 5'2 so can't reach my height I'm 5'10) so I lifted her a bit and hugged her tightly and she was so emotional cause whenever her parents used to say something rude or mean to her she used to tell me that she want a hug but all i could say at that time is "soon betu" but finally after so much waiting we were in arms of eachother and after it she was so emotional that her eyes were watery then we went on a little ride on my scooty and I dropped her home.

If you have any questions or curious about anything lemme know I'll try to answer and sorry for grammer or long paragraphs cause I was too busy in writing.

TL:DR- JUST read the whole thing i didn't wrote all that for nothing