I had/am having my first lupus enteritis flare

I have always known yes, lupus can be deadly. But there's knowing it and then feeling it literally attacking the liver and intestines.. Getting violently ill every time I eat, and being too weak to function. I'm trying not to be scared, because that isn't productive, but it's scary :( yay for steroids to the rescue, and I'm starting to feel better, but holy shit.

Just wanted to vent, to others who understand.