Chores are ruining my life

(Only half joking)

There‘s so much to do every single dayyyyy and I need it to at least be semi-clean and tidy, or else I get anxious. Laundry, clothes, the fucking dishes, vacuuming, dusting off, wiping surfaces, the fucking groceries, watering the plants, cleaning the bathroom, bedroom and kitchen, cleaning up after arts and crafts, changing the sheets, and and and…. Not all of these are every day of course but I‘m also physically disabled and then when a flare hits at the same time as a heatwave plus I‘m PMDD-ing…. Lord have mercy. I live alone in a one bedroom and even this I can barely manage. I didn‘t work for two years because my health got really bad and I just recently started working a job that I can do whenever I want from home which is great, I don‘t have kids or other responsibilities, and still it‘s so incredibly difficult. I honestly don‘t know how people with kids do it, yall are superheroes!!!

AND I‘m medicated and it‘s still super hard!!! I‘m trying to accommodate myself and allow splurging with ordering takeout and groceries even if it means I end up spending more this way, I also have a subscription for a recycling service so I don‘t need to do any recycling myself, I take public transport or an uber instead of walking or the bike if I‘m low energy, I use disposable dishes when it‘s really bad, and I‘m thinking of hiring a cleaning help but I‘m mentally struggling to justify it bc it‘s only a one bedroom apartment but god would it help.

I know there‘s at least one post like this per week on here lol so I‘m sorry to add to the heap but I know yall understand and I just needed to vent bc I literally forced myself to clean four days ago even as I was flaring and my place is a fucking mess AGAIN!!!!