Childhood Bullying - The Affects after 48 years.

I was bullied mercilessly as a kid and into my early teens by people that were supposed to be my friends. Now that I’m much older, I am experiencing the psychological trauma from it. I was born missing my left arm from the elbow down and three fingers from my right hand, so I was a target, but having experienced this from people that were supposed to have my back, was so demeaning. The awful things that they did haunt me today. After all these years, should I confront them? I’ve been through hell in my life, and this is just a small part of my healing I’m trying to deal with. I lost my father when I was 12, I was diagnosed with scoliosis when I was in 8th grade and had to start my freshman year of high school with one of those archaic back braces that had a metal bar that comes up from a bulky plastic piece that went around my waste, and a metal piece that went around my neck. Awful! I was molested by a boyfriend of my sisters when I was 15 and he was 28! My cousin actually tried to molest me and wanted to have a threesome with his wife. I’m a mess! I need help! Also, I found out from my fathers best friend that when I was born, and came out with a physical disability, this was in the 60’s btw, my father thought I was some type of punishment for bad things he had done. Bad things like what??? I never found out and NOBODY in my family will talk about him. I’m just devastated.