Broke relapse

What it sounds like. I was at work and something awful happened and I straight up grabbed a plastic knife and went at it. Not very effective, I dare say. I hope I'm not giving anyone any ideas. Even if I am, please note it fucking sucks.

Antidepressants make me energetic but not any less depressed. Woke up super suicidal and happy then suddenly felt okay again. I wonder if I'm just not really depressed. I have no idea what's wrong ✨

Do not try this!!!!!!!!