A very quick backstory; I’m 38. I was diagnosed with severe endometriosis in 2006 and in 2007 I had my first surgery. Unfortunately during that time pain pills were being \*over\* prescribed for everything. I left the hospital with a 3 month supply of hydrocodone and a refill on top.

I got addicted right away.

I spent the next 10 years addicted to opiates. My situation was a little different than Jordan’s because after a few years I realized I didn’t \*want\* to be using and wanted to go to rehab but my spouse at the time (who was very narcissistic) did not want me to go to rehab and said if I “really wanted to quit I just would” 🙄 

Eventually I got so tired of the lifestyle.. of waking up every morning and my first thought being “where am I going to get money for pills” or if by some miracle I had money.. it would be “where am I going to get pills today”  
Eventually around 2017 I got so tired of everything that while my spouse was at work I essentially snuck off to rehab, lol.

But the point of this story of that I understand the desperation. The ability to lie about anything and everything just to make sure you get your next fix. Nothing really matters but the drugs.

She doesn’t care that there’s a Reddit page dedicated to her. She doesn’t care about the haters in her comments. I guarantee you while she’s saying stuff like “why do they always have to bring up my grandma?” in her head she’s thinking of which plug she’s going to call and how much she’s getting.   
I doubt any of the money that \*ANYONE\* has ever sent her on TikTok has went to anything but drugs. Maybe cigarettes occasionally. But I’m sure she’s feeding the dog the cheapest food she can get so anything additional can be added to her drug fund. 

When I finally got clean in early 2018 it was mostly thanks to the rehab that I escaped to,  
lol. And after graduating their program they told me that if I ever needed help again or knew anyone who needed help to let them know. I also want to add this rehab was more like a retreat and because I showed desperation and a true desire to get clean they ended up using a scholarship to pay for my stay. So I did not have to pay a dime for rehab and they told me if I ever knew anyone that needed help they could do the same for them. 

I have personally messaged Jordan \*numerous\* times and offered her that opportunity. I have told her that her flight to and from the rehab facility would be paid for as long as she stayed the full 30-60 days. They also offer sober living after if that’s something you’re interested in or they think you need.   
There are programs that will board your pets while you’re in rehab and they run off of donations so they do not charge anyone for the services. And most of the sober living places they offer referrals to allow pets and I told her all of this.

Unfortunately Jordan does not want help. And she won’t get help or change until she truly wants it. There is no “rock bottom” that will encourage any change that the person themselves doesn’t want first. 

I still occasionally watch her lives for a few minutes on TikTok when I come across her but seeing how much weight she’s lost and how badly her teeth are decaying just reminds me of myself at that time. I ended up having to get full dentures at 32 because of my drug use. 

I included a picture of myself during that time. Despite her being a scammer.. despite her lies.. I do hope she gets better. I hope that one day she realizes that \*she\* is worth the work to get sober. Because it’s not easy but once you realize you’re worth putting the work in for.. it gets easier. 

And I’ve been sober since 3/29/2018 🎉

I was Jordan for many years..