It’s so embarrassing to stalk a crush on social media when you’re in your 20s 😭

I see him in campus all the time but I don’t have the urge to approach him. And by stalking I mean visiting their profiles every day and always refreshing to see if they uploaded or reposted something. I use those “anonymous instagram/tiktok story viewers” because I don’t want them to know I saw their stories. If feels so lifeless and jobless and embarrassing to still be doing this as a 20 y/o but I can’t stop 😭😭