22F — I fear I may have created a man in my head 😭

Okay, hear me out. I’ve been thinking about what I actually want in a relationship and I’m curious if I’m being delusional or if this man actually exists lmao.
A little about me first: 21F, IIT grad, currently figuring out the whole Bangalore/job/adulting arc. I’m pretty ambitious and career-oriented, but I’m also very much a creative person. I’m into fashion, art, designing, music, etc. I lift regularly and I’m genuinely obsessed with the gym, so having someone who’d actually enjoy training with me would be elite.
I’m also very much a talk-for-5-hours-and-suddenly-it’s-4am person. I love music, hip-hop especially, and I’m always down to listen to an album together, go out, get high sometimes, travel, yap about absolutely nothing, or have some insane philosophical conversation at 3 AM.
And this is probably my biggest thing: I need emotional depth. Like Mariana Trench depth. Not teaspoon depth. 😭
I want someone who’s actually curious about himself and the world. Someone who can talk about his feelings, his childhood, his ambitions, his fears, his stupid little thoughts, everything. Someone who’s capable of having difficult conversations instead of just shutting down and disappearing. I don’t expect someone to be perfectly emotionally regulated 24/7—I’m not either—but I need someone who’s willing to communicate and work through shit with me.
Basically I want my boyfriend to also be my best friend, yap partner, gym bro, music buddy and person I can be completely unfiltered around.
Physically, I know I’m picky lol. My type is 6’2”+, (I’m 5’8”) broad shoulders, built, handsome, strong, preferably someone who lifts seriously and actually enjoys being in the gym. I want to be VERY attracted to my partner, and I expect the same from him and I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that.
Sexual compatibility is also important to me. I want someone who’s very into his partner and genuinely loves pleasing her, where sex isn’t just “we fucked” but something we’re both enthusiastic about and invested in. And personally, I’d strongly prefer someone who doesn’t watch porn. That’s a pretty significant relationship preference for me.
I’d also like someone who’s loyal, has his own career, financially independent, ambitious, and has his own life, but still actually knows how to be a boyfriend. Like please have your own goals, friends and hobbies, but also make me feel like you actually WANT me in your life 😭.
I’m not Muslim, but I’d preferably like someone who’s Muslim. I just think there are certain cultural/family/value things that can be easier when there’s some overlap, although I’m obviously not expecting someone to be religious in exactly the same way I am, I’m not religious and I don’t want someone religious either, just need someone who’s culturally muslim, but I wouldn’t mind looking into religion and exploring it together.
And before anyone says “girl you’re asking for too much” — I’m not claiming I’m some perfect trad wife princess lmao. I have my own issues, insecurities and shit I’m working on. I’d want to give the same emotional effort, loyalty, affection and understanding that I’m asking for.
So basically I’m looking for:
hot + tall + built + loyal + emotionally intelligent + financially independent + sexually compatible + funny + interesting + communicates + gym bro + music nerd + can yap for hours + doesn’t watch porn + preferably Muslim.
😭
Am I cooked or does this man actually exist somewhere?