looking for someone to talk to

im alone and im suicidal i need someone in my life , will be honest im looking for bestfriend kind of or girlfriend maybe , im good at understanding , im calm and composed and i care a lot and im loyal as hell , its seem a bit of weird post but im alone everyday , no one to talk to or anything and its so sad to see myself daily being anxious , and thinking will i ever found someone , am i deserving to be loved