Indian schools and teachers are genuinely so evil

Though this rant was triggered by my awful experience at school today, I had all this on my mind for so long and I kinda just wanna dump it all here. Today during a special assembly on mental health our principal gave a speech at the end where she was like “yeah your message is good, mental health is imp blah blah blah but bacho, HAVE YOU EVER NOTICED HOW DEPRESSION, STRESS, ANXIETY AND SUICIDAL TENDENCIES ARE SO RECENT??? Yeah it’s because of you kids using them as an excuse to escape responsibility! Fun fact- did you know it’s the damn phone and wikipedia poisoning your minds with awareness and “over exposure” to such things?” Her logic being that since people are now aware of their existence, their mind will develop it basically “sab man ka vehem h” classic boomer talk. In that moment I felt so goddamn furious I’m not kidding aisa man kr rha tha ki apna joota nikalke sar pe maru uske. As someone who has/is suffering from such issues and who almost lost a sibling to these, please stfu. My family and childhood is fxcked and destroyed and this bxtch thinks ki still the parents are somehow the victims in all this because “Muh feelings hurt bcz a moody teenager was being a moody teenager, where’s muh sanskari izzat??” She is literally privilege incarnate when I can bet all my possessions that she’s never even experienced a panic attack before.

Then later today my English teacher started bullying me for no fxcking reason. Ig she got fed up of holding onto my answersheet cuz I was absent due to sickness and then she (as middle aged women with 0 skills, 4/10 cgpa in B.Ed and sifarishi private school ki naukri tend to do) got pissed and decided today was the perfect time for my public humiliation. The day I first saw her and experienced her as a teacher I knew me and her were gonna cross paths eventually, she’s a bloody egomaniac and I dont take shit from anyone. Literally she started off her whole lecture on me with sarcasm, making remarks on my name, being sarcastic (not the witty kind she’s not smart enough for that, but the straight up rude and mean kind) literally humiliated me for 10 minutes like “Do you wanna say something Miss X? Huh Miss X? Why don’t you come to school…you look rather dazed…fix your face….” I still blame myself, wtf didn’t I shut her up??? why did I freeze??? There are so many more experiences throughout my life that would seem trivial to others but to me, each one feels like a violation.

But luckily I am not 5 anymore. I have more brain than to willingly enter a place where emotionally and physically abusing, public humiliating, demeaning and bullying me and others like me is accepted, nay, encouraged. But the adults still don’t get it. Pure system ko badalne ki zimmedari meri akeli nhi h, hr teacher ko jake thodi basic human decency, emotional intelligence, teaching or ethics ke lectures dungi so what can I do? Simple, just opt out of the situation entirely.

Be honest guys, when shit like this (which is just the tip of the iceberg and ye jab haal h jab mei usually ek well scoring, always well behaved, quiet, never talks back, never creates nuisance, no trouble type kid since forever hu) happens to me everytime I step into that wretched place, why would I wanna go back??? I can’t avoid the trauma at home, but I can avoid it completely at school. Even when I’m at my best these loser fxcking adults who gain ego trips from bullying children ruin it. I never want to be a mom lekin hypothetically if I even had kids, I think I love my hypothetical children too much to willingly sign them up for emotional and physcial abuse for the next 10+ years of their lives. I’d totally homeschool them or in another country but NEVER is this horrid society, culture and NEVER with these same people. I don’t like kids at all but I have a niece, she’s a baby rn but I already feel scared for her, when I look at her all those terrible, awful memories come back and to think she, such a little bundle of joy will have to go through such stuff and the fact that I can’t save her, it’s inevitable; kills me a little inside, every single time.

The environment, the incompetent fxcks who don’t deserve to handle young lives, straight up predators, the sheep classmates who never stand up for each other, the exams, the “punishments” everything, every single goddamn thing is cursed about this place. It’s like a festering rot that consumes beautiful, innocent little kids. I don’t just mourn myself, but my heart aches for every single child out there. As indifferent as I show myself to my classmates, I feel so deeply for them. It’s not their fault, they too are victims and that’s the tragedy.

Days like these, I could just sit and cry, mourning myself but I won’t. I won’t let them have victory over me.

Even here there will be some kids (again, not their fault) who will think I’m overreacting, “The stuff bro sends me after failing” and shit but seriously try and think about it and if you still can’t, I’m sorry for you. Also just to clear it up if it wasn’t obvious enough, I’m not against education, it’s a wonderful thing and I’m not against a more liberal idea of school. Indian schools though are genuinely the worst. If you don’t relate to this don’t even bother engaging, you won’t get it.