First time going back to the office in 6.5 years. I've gained weight from 100+ lbs. to 300 lbs., and I'm scared of being judged.

I don't really know what to do. I got depressed over the years due to many factors in my personal life -- image issues, familial, lack of success in many aspects of my life, etc. -- and got into stress eating. I ballooned from ~100 lbs. to ~300 lbs. in that time period. I'm trying to be better now but as you all know, progress is not easy. I'm trying to love myself and accept that I may or may not go back to my original size.

I don't go out much. I stay indoors as much as possible and I attribute that partly to my being introvert. However, for the first time in 6.5 years, I'm being asked to go to the office. My coworkers have not seen me in so long and I'm so afraid of being judged. I know because they were like that when I was still going to the office. Every day there's a new person they gossip about or judge.

How do I cope with this? It was so bad for me that I've actually considered resigning . . . but then I thought, it would just make life harder for me because I have no other source of income. I wanted to talk to my supervisor about it but I know he would say no -- and he did make it clear in the company chat that I have no choice. That I have to do this.

I don't have anything to wear, I don't look good, and I don't drive a car (afraid of it), so I'll take the commute. Partly, I've even forgotten how to make my way there.

I've been stressing about this for weeks since this was announced. I've been praying every night that they change their mind. I'm so lost.

I know it sounds immature and I should deal with it and it's not a big deal in the grand scheme of things . . . and of course, there are far more serious things to worry about in the world. But I really wish I could just avoid having to do this. I'm so afraid. I'm so ashamed.

I'm sorry for this post. I just have nowhere to go and don't know what to do.