Sketching nudes to kick my porn addiction

Ive made a post on here previously but once again i deleted my acc and started anew, and for more context i do have a partner and they have no clue i do this. I a 20 something year old dude has dealt with a porn addiction since i was maybe 8 or 9 after being introduced to it at that age and after that at any point i was alone i was actively looking for any means to me my rocks off and eventually i got a phone and it was a downward spiral from there finding sexual content across what ever social media i could and eventually just going to the classic sites. This addiction can rewire your brain in many many ways, it changes how you see other people, how you treat relationships, bedroom expectations, even “justifying” cheating because you want more and more and more. I know my actions are my own to make and im aware of the bad ones ive made in the mental state of horny monkey brain, and this has been a huge problem for me for the majority of my life and tends to spike when i dont feel im receiving the attention i crave. for the last few months ive been able to kinda curb the crave however its not the best course of action and for context ive always like to draw and sketch and always wanted to get good with anatomy to create the art i see in my head as well as i thought it would make some money on the side if i got good enough. All of this kinda led me to various subs where people post their nudes and ask redditors to draw them up and i saw it as perfect practice ( yeah i know reference models exist but they dont always click for me). Since then ive really hammered down anatomy im still not where i want but ive gotten a lot better, i have some posted. The major downside of this is im becoming more unfaithful im reaching out to some and conversations get a bit flirty and i throw out more compliments than i should and im discovering that i find it to be pretty arousing to see these people in such a light and to be able to sketch them up, i always sketch with consent even if im down a reddit porn rabbit hole i try to reach out if i find a good pose or whatnot for the posters permission and ill share my work and offer to do more if theyre interested. Like i said tho i have a partner and the fear of them finding out makes me sick i have told no one around me the things i actually sketch i just tell them im practicing anatomy. Ive gone throught reddit acc after reddit acc none of them lasted more than a week and sketched easily 25-40 different nudes ive received i just find it so fun and arousing and i cant seen to stop this new addiction ive replaced my old one with.