i feel so empty and alone constantly

all the time i feel so empty and alone. i feel so dependent on: alc, people, video games, movies, my phone. different things to fill the void temporarily and even then i feel unfulfilled most of the time. i used to be a person and i miss her. i hate the codependency i rely on to feel alive, idk how to embrace this disorder and make it more of a positive than a negative if that’s even possible.