Have a good day

Had to write this cause, i'm feeling heavy. I never felt lonely, even though i'm the only child. Even when my favorite grandpa who raised me passed away i never felt lonely. Even when i lost one of my parent i never felt lonely. I always looked forward in life, holding myself so closely whenever i get a scar. But the scars never made me felt lonely because i never depended on anyone emotionally all my life,which is a very good thing.

It's not because i don't want to, it's because i just don't. So letting people go, or detaching been easy for me. I don't have a sensitive heart nor i'm not selfish in life.

But i changed, i changed so much...that i really love myself more now and i'm still the boss, but the younger version of me is more reckless, more kind, more sensitive, she's full of dreams and life, and her own boss. But what changed me so much? It's just growing up and not being a kid or teen anymore. Life is same and more better than before, it's calm than chaos. Boring than exciting. Less friendships, more me and less of everything. Many people call this GOLDEN, infact it is.

But there is a huge space, a space that don't desire for anything like love, relationships, acheiving something in career. But just traveling, eating good food, sleep well and making many true connections.

Is not that funny? That every other living being, lives in this world for free. But humans need to do so much to live either mentally, spiritually or physically. Ofcourse there are perks of it....but yeahh.

Thanks for listening to me, Stranger. I'm feeling good now....writing always helps.

I hope you have a beautiful day.