Not feeling mentally well even tho there are no huge bad symptoms ?

Like sure I had a shit childhood but now I’ve worked on some issues, talked quite a lot about them to my therapist and even he doesn’t know what more could help. But I don’t know I still get some very dark thoughts from time to time, I still feel heavy with something I can’t name, I still can’t move some days. But I don’t feel depressed, I don’t know.

Does anyone deal with that ? Like you’re not depressed but you still don’t feel like everything’s alright ?

My therapist said it was an issue about wanting to be perfect (like perfectly happy, perfect figure or mental health) which doesn’t exist but also I don’t know it kinda sucks to just feel bleh.