Losing progress

My streaks went from 1.5 months to 2 weeks and now 7-6 days

Im 21, I think started my journey 4 months ago been watching since I was 12 . I had my longest streak (1.5) , I started to lift , my body grew bigger people started noticing and compliments came . Until I came back drunk from the club one day and relapsed.
than the streak turned to a month streak , again because I came back home drunk and horny. and than 2 weeks , and now I can’t last longer than 6 days and the scariest about it is that I think Im losing motivation.

I know my triggers are being alone at home , or being bored but It seems like I can’t avoid these things, and when bad thoughts come to me I can’t fight them anymore.

The point is… I need some tips/help to get my head back in the game boys, I would appreciate anybody sharing some knowledge