I don’t think I’m scared of going bald, I’m scared of watching it happen

Idk if this makes sense but the slow part is what gets me.

Like if I was just bald tomorrow obviously that would suck, but at least I wouldnt be checking my hair every week wondering if its worse. One day it looks fine, then I see some random pic or catch the top in bad lighting and im back comparing old photos again.

I dont even think I care about having perfect hair. I just hate watching it slowly change and not knowing how much worse its gonna get. Anyone else feel like that?