Yup, I might be a failure and depressed. I have a semester break during summer and winter which each last around two months because we have our exams very early on. I’ve been studying for two semesters or one year at uni now and I haven’t been able to pass any of my exams because I’m not disciplined enough to study daily. I didn’t even try to write any exams in my first semester except for a historical quiz that I failed. During uni, the stress keeps me from realizing how much of a failure I am. But right now, during summer break, I realize just how much of a loser I am. I made lots of friends in my first semester, lost all of them by now. And even now when I’m on break, I can’t get myself to study. I’m just wasting time. And for some reason, I just can’t feel happy as of late. I’m such a negative person. Even my mom keeps telling me. I wanna meet up with my friends but they’re all busy. I feel so alone, in a way, even though I have my family to talk to every day and my sister and I laugh a lot with her and our relationship has gotten better as of late. I don’t know how to restore my happiness. Perhaps the key to the solution is to busy my days so much with work that I can just blame my busy schedule for making me unhappy and never truly find out why I’m like this. I feel depressed right now and I just wanna cry. 

Waffle I had at a cafe this evening, because I didn’t feel like eating anything heavy and craved something sweet. It looks bomb tho 👀 

I MIGHT be a failure