I feel empty

Lately ive been feeling empty, both physically and emotionally
I couldn’t eat for the past few days because i keep throwing up(im not pregnant its js some weird eating disorder that i dont wven know what its called) to the point i feel like im skin and bones, even my mom told me im probably going to the ER if i continue on like ts

And lately every night ive been huddling up in my sleep, honestly i dont even get to sleep much cuz i just couldnt and i just cry quietly while im hugging my stuffed animal
Idk whats going on, probably because I haven’t been taking my stabilization meds properly.. but how could i take hem when i just throw them up? I want to cry cuz its just a waste to drink them and throw it up.. spending money on expensive meds when my family is alrdy struggling w bills and my medicine and other things..

I have a boyfriend, he loves me, we casually talk, im supposed to be happy. I get to spend and talk to him online alllll the time, yet i still feel empty, i mean i feel the love, but at the same time i dont.. cuz its been a whole WEEK since without school cuz of suspensions bc of the rain, so we couldnt see eachother, maybe thats also a reason why im feeling empty

I try to cope by hugging my dog, or dressing up, drawing, doing videos like i usually do but nothing seems to work, it seems like everything gets further from me and i get bored of it or they get bored of me. Same with playing something like roblox, it gets boring real fast when i dont play while on call with somebody, and I rarely do that w anyone cuz my sister gets annoyed when im speaking to somebody or the people im trying to play with are always busy. I only have one friend and my bf so, i dont really know who to talk with or what to do. And i dont open up to them because i feel like they arent much of a comforter or listener since ive seen them like hat before

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My tendencies with sexual things keeps getting worse too, fuck hypersexuality ig
Im constantly bleeding now bc of it and i still feel empty, and continue
I dont feel anything anymore and thats probably a bad thing. And also another bad thing is that i never tell when im bleeding to my parents or anyone that i know because i really cant help myself to think im disgusting for not being able to control myself.
I def know it aint my period cuz i just had it like 4 days ago, its already been over.

Empty, empty, empty, just feeling empty dunno what to do but lay down and stare at the ceiling or at the side, i have sooooo many schoolworks i havent done and i cant do it at all because i feel “empty”. Good, now i feel like im saying that i feel empty just to cover up for my laziness. I really dont know what to do anymore, but good thing i dont think about intrusive thoughts anymore like slashing or hanging..