What's the best online therapy ( affordable) for OCD?

Been suffering with OCD like problems for years

Need help but can't immediately access it.

It has fully changed me . Sometimes I wanna quickly escape this pain

It's very risky

I am not in a position to find time to visit good therapist now ( btw which to visit to get diagnosed in the first place ! ) so how do I handle life

It's all college shifting and mourning of a type of person who I could have been...

please help