I tried anal masturbation and now I feel sad and ashamed

I’ve always liked the idea of anal play. So today I inserted a plug into myself and the sensation was strange so I took it out after not too long. Afterwards I just felt gross and ashamed. I guess I wanted to know myself better sexually. I also lost my virginity yesterday so I guess it’s been a lot. I just feel really embarrassed. Like I never should’ve done it in the first place even if I didn’t hate how it felt. I don’t know. Has anybody felt the same way I do? I feel really alone.