no longer my safe person,

it probably isnt right for me to write this but human emotions are weird and atleast i know youll never find this.

i think i still am grieving 'us' a little bit. i never truly got over you so hearing my sister say that youre expecting a baby with your new girl made me feel broken in ways i cannot describe.

dont get me wrong; im happy that you found someone who matches you better than i ever did, but maybe im grieving the fact that i thought it was going to be me carrying tour first child, maybe im grieving the old version of me before i got hurt, maybe the fact that i was going to marry you. we both knew i was a placeholder for you though because you 'knew you wouldnt find anyone else'.

i stayed away in hopes that i didnt disrupt your peace and healing, and i know that youre happy now so im guessing this is where i truly move on from you. i just wish i couldve seen you one last time and just gotten a bit of closure.

please dont hurt her in the ways you hurt me. if your old address is still where you are let me know so i can send your things back that i kept. our story is done and i hope you live a life thats better suited for you and yours.

love always,

a forgotten memory🖤