I want to have enough money to be able to buy myself stuff and have a comfortable apartment but i don’t know what to do.

So let me say it in a better way. I’m 20 and recently i’ve been so so stressed about money and i know one of my goal in life if i wanna continue it is to have good money to spend on some certain stuff like collecting things i love and be able to get a comfortable apartment. My worry is that i don’t have a degree and dropped out of college twice and im so scared that with that it won’t work. My dream job is streaming full time or be able to work in video games or be able to voice act i’ve been trying my best yet i’m so so scared that it won’t work and i will not be able to do what i want in life. At this point if i can’t get to that point i don’t see my purpose in life and why i would continue. I just need advice for my dreams and any advice to get good money if anyone has any. It gets me so anxious.