its only sex

so I've been reading all the sex blogs about hundreds of hypothetical peoples sex deals, but what about me and my sex deal. what about my problems.

I am sexually attracted to the idea of people, but perhaps not so much in the act. my body enjoys sex(?, as in the act of orgasming), but I don't really. I've never felt deep enjoyment from sucking dick or eating pussy and I'd rather just do myself. I do crave intimacy, but maybe not that way? I'm every emotionally attracted to people and I recognize physicality, but shy away from actual connection. I've been single for about two years now and don't feel any deep or particular desire to be in a relationship, but have found myself looking for love lately as I was encouraged by my peers. I love people. I know what my body likes. But I don't want it to be inflicted by another where I have to perform.

I guess its only

sex