I need a big sis to understand my situation

I've never been in any relations even though I'm a 21 year old grown ass man. I always convinced myself that I don't need these things they're jst distractions... Told myself to focus on study...and now I'm in clg and hear everyone's story about how they miss their exes or gfs, I feel bad coz I never shared that kinda bond with anyone. And now I don't even know how to talk to women.

I'm under confident, insecure you jst name it. I really need someone who I can be close with... I wanna share a beautiful bond like that with someone.

Even listening to someone's break up story makes me feel bad coz how am I supposed to keep up with them if i was never heartbroken either... I jst make up a sad breakup story of myself and tell them at times like this...